Ugh … I’ve Got The First Trimester Blues

I love Becky’s honesty in this post.  When I read about celebrities or other mothers gushing about how awesome pregnancy and newborn life is, I want to yell at my computer: “LIARS!  Tell the people the truth!”  It is true having a baby is amazing, but it ain’t sunshine and roses all the time. One thing I do not miss about being pregnant is the early pregnancy feeling-fat stage. My heart goes out to you Becky, it does get better. – Stephanie 

Have I been infected with pregnancy crazy brain?

No, not the stoner brain kind fellow moms warn you about. I’m referring to the kind that incites body dysmorphia and freakish bi-polar episodes. The kind that make you half smile stoically when someone asks, “Aren’t you excited to be pregnant?”

The answer I want to tell people, ”Uhhh … I think I will be?”

Thinking Positive


We started announcing our news the old-fashioned way, NOT by posting a sonogram pic on my Facebook wall.  I won’t post anything pregnancy-related for fear that my many non-friend friends won’t comment at all, not even a like! Evidently, low self-esteem is another fabulous symptom of the pre-baby blues.

11 1/2 Week Baby


My husband and I had been trying to conceive for 8 months. We were elated when the pregnancy
was positive. Then narcolepsy set in, I peed every 10 minutes, and I jumped from a size 4 to a size 8. Nothing throws me into a depressive state more than walking into a closet of clothes that don’t fit me.

Busting Out

Thankfully, I’m an obsessive eBayer. If readjusting my wardrobe doesn’t shock me back into reality, then hopefully my second trimester will.

About the Author

Becky is a LA-based tv + web producer + cooker + laugher + urban farmer + fashion wearer + make it happener. She's currently obsessed with taking ridiculous pics of her hilariously photogenic baby Vida on Instagram.


  1. Oh thank God! I thought maybe I wasn’t doing this thing right :)

    • Ashley, we’re not alone! : ) It feels liberating to finally say something and not feel like a bad mom for doing it. As for the clothes, I did manage to find a student designer who is recreating variations of my favorite empire waist dress at $25 a pop. It’s definitely helped the closet situation.

  2. I felt like I was being invaded by a giant bass fish when I was early in my pregnancy. And all of a sudden I looked like I was in training to be a sumo wrestler. It is an awe inspiring process but one that definitely comes with weirdly bodily noises, a silly putty stomach and fear that you may never see your toes again. It does get better. Slowly.

    • Thanks for the encouragement! I’m officially in the second trimester and thankfully, it has gotten better. Now I just have to invest in a pregnancy pillow so I can sleep with this growing belly. Any suggestions?

      • The Snoogle giant body pillow was my pregnancy lifesaver!!!!!! It takes up a big chunk of your bed (my husband wasn’t terribly impressed with that), but it helped ease those aching joints! I highly recommend it!

        And, my little guy just turned a year old– and while I want another child or two, I’m not really in any hurry at this stage!! BUT, being a mom is incredible (most of the time!). Nothing brings me more joy than my little guy!

        • I can’t wait to get my hands on one of those pillows! Thanks for the recommendation. Also, I love your yummy site. Follow me @TheKitchenCook…though I haven’t wanted to cook much since becoming pregnant. However, I do look forward to whipping up some awesome baby food.

  3. I had my little girl 9 months ago and we are planning on trying again when she is about a year old. I am NOT, I repeat NOT looking forward to being pregnant again. Sure I loved to feel her kick and move around but that was it. You are definitely not alone. :) I thought it was going to be wonderful but nope, I was wrong.
    Good luck on the rest of your pregnancy and congrats on finding someone to get your clothes from. :)

  4. AMEN SISTER!!! I’m just over 13 weeks with my first baby and I’m still in shock with how absolutely AWFUL it is. When people ask how I’ve been feeling I’m tempted to tell them how many times I’ve thrown up that day and how zofran can’t even curb my double digit puke counts. Good luck with the rest! I’m counting down the days…

    • Alexis – I think we need a Trevor Project “It Gets Better” video campaign for new moms. I’m now at 17 weeks and it has gotten better!! Now if I can just get my friends to stop telling me how tired I look!

  5. I’m so glad I’m not the only one! I was starting to feel like a horrible mother-to-be. Don’t get me wrong, I am SO excited for our baby (due Feb 2013) but I’m about 17 weeks along and am in the “I don’t look visibly pregnant but am just getting fat” phase. Ugh! I can’t wait until I have a bigger baby belly (maybe I’ll regret saying that?) so people don’t just think I’m fat!


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